And almost instantly...

After writing the last thing, I wrote something else when I got to my desk. A response of sorts:

The prospect of love never scared me

-It's just that I hate the sensation of falling.




I don't know what that means either. But it felt right.

I came up with this the other day at work...

It was night time and I was dropping something off to the hotel. When I went in, I wrote this at the front desk. I needed to get it down before I forgot it...

I can see the stars tonight
Their lights reminding me of the twinkle in your eyes as you look to me and say:
I...
Like you


A lot

And it's funny how the corresponding gleaming
I see in your teeth match perfectly

I stare and get mesmerized as I try to memorize the shapes formed by their glittering
And more frequently
Flittering
Flattering
Redefining
My ideas about you



Fuck


This is what it feels like to fall.




It has a nice ring to it when I read this out loud.

22 years old

I am too young to have friends die.

Lisa
Walter
Alexa
Danny
Now Adam.

Who am I missing?
Who's next?

Yep

Bad decisions are my favorite.

All I need sometimes is a little push.

Last Saturday

I celebrated the 18 year anniversary of my heart surgery.

When I was a kid, they told me the scar would fade and seem to shrink away.




I'm glad they were wrong.

Thank you to everyone who well-wished and helped me celebrate

When I have the day off

I watch movies on NetFlix the whole day.

I watch movies the whole day.

And then sometimes go out at night.




I'm happy about that.


It's not bad being broke :-D

I am the Lord of the Flies, bitch.

Kicked it at RedBar last night. Killed it. Videos in
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RedBar 1/14/09 pt1


RedBar 1/14/09 pt2