It's true

I am a very awkward person

Seriously.

I hope you all understand this.




I'm not good with words. I'm terribly compulsive. And I am too curious for my own good.
I am misunderstood for almost that reason alone.

I am painfully curious. And that leads me to be adventurous with how I am around people. What I say. What I do. I am constantly poking for a reaction.

I want people to react. Life. A rise. I want to see people in all of their conditions.

And I am impatient about that.



I want to be impatient. Cause I want what I want. And I want it now.

But feeling like I have to perform always and all the time for everybody doesn't help. Having to be "on." Watching what I say, being PC, being literate. Fuck it, man. I'm so sick of it.




So I am an awkward guy. And it's cost me more relationships (romantic or otherwise) than I care to admit. But I learn from it, and it makes me a better person.